I was recently accepted into Law School, LAW SCHOOL! This has been my dream since before I can even remember. Thirteen years in the making to get where I am today, right now, at this very moment. I start school this week and surprisingly I am consumed with an it! So much anxiety! Anxiety about not being able to keep up with classes during my depressive episodes and anxiety about speaking too fast in class when the professor calls on me to speak. Now don’t get me wrong, I know I have earned a spot I. This class just the same as any of my other classmates; the problem is that I don’t feel the same in comparison to any one of them.
I keep ruminating and obsessing over the “what ifs” and “what nots” that may come at some point in the future throughout my time at law school. But why? And how do I fix it?
Another important point to highlight is that although I have spent my whole life to get to this point, I don’t feel any joy or excitement about where I am right now. It’s perplexing to me. Shouldn’t I be excited and joyful? Instead I’m filled with angst about the potential of failing and either not being a good attorney or not being able to make it through law school whatsoever. I wish I didn’t feel this way. And this is why I’m writing this post; to share with you my struggles in the hopes that you can relate and offer support or relate and offer guidance. I know all of us experience the symptoms of bipolar differently, but I think it’s safe to assume we are all consumed with a fear of being judged.
WHAT DO YOU DO TO TALK YOUR MIND OUT OF TALKING YOU OUT OF DOING SOMETHING?
HOW DO YOU HANDLE THE FEAR OF FAILURE AND BEING JUDGED?
Legally Bipolar 